anways.. speaking of friend.. evan rocks my world

damn straight. I am, like, the coolest guy in the world. Woof. I broke my legs today, and learned how to say "anyouz" in sign-language. Also, "Vagina"...and "lesbian". Good combination, I should have some fun with that. I'm sorry I haven't posted in a while, I've been feeling worn out from just being so fuck-all optimistic all the time. It really is not so healthy for one such as I to do. Sierra is nice. I can't have spaces, the stupid program blocks everything I type up into one big paragraph, so the theatrical effect is nil. I'm thinking I might just pay for a live journal and shift my heartache on over there. I ended up doing the damn dishes, btw. Stupid girl. Man, it seems like forever since I've posted anything here. Maybe that means I'm living, huh?

Radiohead is....

God. That's all there is to it. If I could be in a band that sounds half as good as they do I could just play music and ignore everything else, all day long. Like this....

*Musical Notes*
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*Drum Crash*
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...and so on. It'd be great. I could play the triangle!

GLASS is crazy-busy...like my life but for a good cause

Like the title says, my life is crazy. GLASS is gonna take a lot of time this year, as will DI (if I do it), and swimming (which I'm considering not doing), and work (if I get a job), and my 4x AP classes...goddamnit I hate living with my family. No joke, Glenna's making me do half the dishes ON HER NIGHT. Dunno how, 'cause I sure as hell am not going to do them, so fuck her. Not to be vulgar, but she can be a huge bitch sometimes. I really wanted something to throw at her, good thing the only thing to throw was the mouse and that would have boomeranged back at me and hurt.

So everyone's life seems to be going well except for Suzie's. I really hope I can convince her that what she's doing is crazy. I feel really bad shoving all this health propoganda down her throat but I really think that she needs a jolt of reality.

I really wish I could remember things. I have to very carefully coordinate when I get to my locker and what I bring home and junk, which is a real pain in the ass when my last hour is a billion miles away from my locker and I have to catch the bus a lot. Mom and Dad want me to go swimming to get in shape for the year, but I don't know if I'm going to be able to handle it. This is my last real chance to coach DI and get in some heavy work and community service, and the more I think about it the less I like the prospect of molding my life around swimming: something that won't help me get to college and I'll probably drop after I graduate. Having "Swim Team: 1 yr JV, 3 yr Varsity" on a resume would look really good, but maybe "DI Coach, DI Judge: Regionals/State, DI Participant: 4th, 8th grade" plus another place to have worked at, plus good AP grades...I don't know. I really want to swim, but it looks like I'll either have to work out a wierd schedule for practices and have a car or forget about everything but swimming. Woof.

And the likelihood of my parents buying a car in time for me to use the Honda = Slim to none. Weak.

Hah. Looks like Glen's had to do the dishes by her lonesome. "Too Bad".

:)

Warm fuzzies!

Lauren, dear, you have no idea (or maybe you do) how special what you have at Interlochen is. Man, if I could have gone...

It really is amazing, I'm so glad you're having a good time.

:)

SooPer Anal MAAAN!!!

Ben wants everyone to know that he was at Perkins with Suzie and Jenny and I. What a penis. Sheesh.

showers are WONDERFUL

Whew.

Just got back from the YAC meeting in Kansas (of all places), and I have a lot of stuff to do. Rules Infraction Policy, Seal of Approval Info...woof.

So Lauren's parents are missing her so much they started crying in church...or so I've heard.

I feel like I've been gone for a really long time. But it's only been two and a half days, so I must just be crazy. Thank god I didn't have that much homework.

School has been going VERY well, considering my previous record.

You have NO IDEA how horrible it is to ride 17+ hours in a car with a girl that whines non-stop about how her parents won't give her money to GO TO NEW YORK TO BUY A PROM DRESS and is MISSING HOME-COMING OH NO HER LIFE IS OVER. Too bad you volunteered for it, so stop whining.

I really want to go to Icaghowan, it had better hurry up and get here.

Oh, and Jane Callenbach got kicked out of the top 5, that's Kristin's spot. Whew, and skateboards too!

But I guess, now it's EVAN'S TOP 5 MOST ATTRACTIVE PEOPLE THAT GO TO MEMORIAL AND SOME SCHOOL IN LAWRENCE, KANSAS. crazy.

Shit. Suzie's been going anorexic again, and I've kinda been thrown into it. It's kind of pathetic, I have this "I've gotta do everything" complex, like I feel responsible for everyone. So I did the GLASS booth for Parent Night 'cause noone else cares enough to do it. And I went to dinner with Suzie and Jenny and got her to eat a Quesadilla. Suzie, not Jenny. Jenny's fine.
Confession time. Evan's got a crush on SOOOOOO-zie!
I did, at least, now it's kind of a "I hope she's bi" sort of thing even though I know she's not. This is really sad. Only a moron like me could fall for a lesbian. To be fair, she isn't your stereotypical bull-dyke, but still. I should have been able to figure that out.
What the fuck is wrong with people? WHAT the fuck is wrong with ME?
Why does this world make less and less sense? I really don't like being in love with a lesbian, having a lot to do, and missing a lot of stuff that makes me happy. I know it's for a good cause (aka: YAC), but I really wish it didn't kill so many weekends.

EVAN'S TOP 5 MOST ATTRACTIVE PEOPLE AT MEMORIAL HIGH SCHOOL (in no particular order)

Anna Nielsen---Shit. She's a freshmen.
Sierra Pope---Brains. Sense of humor. Quite a package.
Suzie Mahkowski (I killed that last name)---Too bad she's a lesbian. For me, that is.
Lauren Scott---Too bad she really doesn't go to this school and is freshmen age.
Jane Callenbach---Also a freshmen. Really pretty skin and very friendly. Not in a dirty way, pervert, just in a friendly one!

Oh yes, and Drew's little sister. But I don't really know her, I just think she's cute.

I'm sorry you guy's have to read this (not that you have to, really) 'cause I wish I had something important to say. Maybe I do. But you'll have to sleep with me to hear it. It's important....really. I'd want to hear it, if I were you.

Really. Important, this.

School, Micheal Moore, and Having Sex With Things in Exchange For Birds

I like how the first day of school always seems really grinding unless it's your first day at a new school, when it's really scary and heart-pounding and sweaty. Being a senior is crazy-wierd. I don't really feel like a senior...more like someone who just came back from junior year and all the seniors are gone.

Having cool people in a class is sooooo important to that class being fun. I've forgotten how much I dislike mass learning. Stagecraft was a lot of fun because I could do things and learn as I go. Most classes you just learn and then do an assignment to prove that you learned it. Much cooler with Aaron.

Damn it, I still can't access any cool sites. Son of a bitch, I hate my parents. They don't realize how much they piss me off with the little things.

I just said "bugger that for a lark" in context. I rock.

I've been reading Stupid White Men or whatever, Micheal Moore's book. It's pretty good. I like how he rips on everyone. Not necessarily equally, but it's the thought that counts. He makes Democrats sound as bad as Republicans, and the thing is I'm starting to believe him. The numbers don't lie.

I am so going to be able to vote in the primaries this year! Hell yeah!

Unless you hate all the other countries in the world, take a REALLY hardline conservative line, or are a huge tax-abusive company, you have no reason to not vote for Ralph Nader. No reason at all. He has the chutzpah to really follow through with what he believes. Crazy how everyone seems to be compromising except for the liberals that really believe in progressive policy. Oh and Nader actually does have progressive policies.

DO NOT VOTE FOR AL GORE OR PRESIDENT BUSH. THEY ARE BAD AND WILL REVERSE WHAT LITTLE PROGRESS THIS COUNTRY HAS MADE IN RECENT YEARS.

I can't believe I'm ranting about politics before politicians are. I hate my obsessive personality.

if you're happy and you know it clap your hands... *silence*
if you're happy and you know it clap your hands... *crickets chirping*
if you're happy and you know and you really want to show it... if you're happy and you know it clap you hands *CLAP CLAP CLap....clap cla....*

I'm so good at bastardizing other people's stuff and being false-happy. I am so tired. There's something about school that just drains you.