what i want

Love- I want to be with someone to the point where nothing else matters. I want to feel their heartbeat and know that I am in the right place; that I am here for a reason. I want be with them and the whole world to melt away into a watercolor that got cried on; that just ignores us.

Company- I want someone to watch movies with at the end of a long week...the kind of movie where it's turned down and all you're doing is talking.

Music- I want to be as good at creating it as I am at loving it. I want to be musical.

Beauty- My own, others', natural beauty...I want it all. I want to see the perfections in the world and not be hung up on the faults. I want to inspire.

Freedom- I want to get out of this room and walk out onto the street. I want to run into people and help them gather up their shopping that I knocked out of their arms, and then walk off whistling while they just stand there, wondering what just happened; wondering where the cold went. I want to buy wierd food from foreign vendors and a brace of hotdogs for a homeless guy. I want to be done with school and this life, and take what I like from it and start a new one.

i want to sing
to sing my song
i want to live in a world where i belong

I want to fight the world, battle through the press and crawl up on the pedestal when they all fall silent.
I want to be on a stage and court perfection. I want to sing to those I live for and have them realize me. I want the whole world to lift me up on their shoulders and bring me closer to the sun. I want to feel the notes cascading over me and know that there is someone out there who knows I am singing for them. Who knows it.
I want to be with someone and have the whole world just melt away, and we'll find ourselves floating in a sea of all the good things in life. In each others' arms, bobbing on graduation parties, and late night discussions, and road trips and art and colors and sound...

Not that I don't have some of those things now.