reminiscing

On wednesday, Sept 24 I referred to myself as "fuck-all optimistic". This was proceeded by rants about how my life sucked...for about a month. I think, perhaps, I am back to some semblance of my old self.

I have, in addition, discovered the key to my optimism.

Caffiene...or snow. I don't think it was snow, but maybe I was pining. So it could have been...but this morning I had a whole heck of a lot of really, really good "free exchange" hot cocoa...and I was rather wired for the rest of the day, except for sixth hour when I dozed off in AP Chem. II. I swear, that is the only class I've fallen asleep in (actually fallen asleep in) all year. I've been really tired in Psych. and Philosophy, but for some reason I just zonk out sixth hour.

Sierra is sick.:(

I could sweet and bring her some soup tomorrow, but it would just be canned, and she'll probably have some anyway. I was thinking about it, though! I almost did it! Gotta give me some credit....

I really want to get everyone awesome Christmas presents this year. I have a lot of money (just transferred a load of savings money into a checking account, and even with Guitar expenses, it's quite the wad of dough), so I'll have to shop around for stuff. Anyone wanna go shopping later?...liiiike.....

THE DAY AFTER THANKSGIVING!!!!

I don't care what you say, I love the rampant consumerism. I love the press of the crowds, I love the deals, and I love the season. I don't really like the fighting over kid's toys, but thankfully that rarely starts until closer to the New Year. I'm thinking about getting really awesome books for everyone this year...

Anyone want anything in particular? If you could have one thing, ANYthing, in the whole world, what would it be? Don't give me some bullshit answer like "peace on earth and goodwi-blah blah blah" I wanna know that if Santa could wrap something up in twenty dead trees, cover it in curly ribbons, and slap a gilt card on it, what you would want to be in the box.

I, personally, would want a fully tricked-out (i.e. 15'' subwoofer, 12 different speakers, CD/MP3/Sattelite Radio sound system, 25'' Plasma Flat-Screens in the back of the seats, VCR/DVD player, black leather seats, and 18'' rims; silver with swishy, yin-yang bits on, and those funny white headlights) Honda Civic Hybrid ...

...Lime fuckin' green.

HEll yeah!

Oh yeah, and honestly, a Christmas with my friends and no family, and plenty of classy alchohol. No joke. I really hate not being around the people I love the most on the one day of the year when you need it the most.

...and to instantly know how to play the guitar as well as Trey Anastazio. Or at least to have logged as many hours as he has into it.

...and a huge Chrismas tree, with just Tinsel and white lights on. Seriously, that is close to the most elegant thing I've ever seen.

...and lots of fluffy, packy snow falling all christmas eve and all christmas day, and bright sun, and good music (i.e. not Ben's music).

...and games, and fun, and...oh, I really just wish we went to Hogwarts or something. There's such an appeal of staying with your friends in this huge, glorious castle while all your "enemies" go home and party it up with their asshole families. *sigh*...

Does anyone want to volunteer at the Community Table on Christmas Eve? I've been doing it for a while, and seriosuly, it's loads of fun. We coud go to a movie or just drink Cocoa afterwards...

...love me....

:) jk